i’m Shy.. n even if no one thinks i am.. i STill Am.. itz just that my "Shy’ is not the typical shy.. itz in wayz that r not so obvious.. Like>. i feel shy to approach ppl sometimes.. eventhough i probably know the person.. n>. sometimes i feel shy to look into ppl’s eyes Directly.. i tend 2 feel awkward if i wear clothes that r tight n skimpy.. hahah. which is y u never see me wearing stuff like barebacks,tubes,.. spaghetti stripe dresses r okay though.. hahaha. oh, i get Cold Hands all the time.. =D THre’s some other stuff ..but.> hahah.. =p thatz all 4 now.. itz late n i wanna go get some sleep. i’m not THAT shy i guess..

but i’m Still to some extent>. Shy.  =)

YES i wear Mascara.. Does Anyone hav a problem with that?? Gimme a break.. u guys.. the reaction is like i did Plastic surgery or something. Ish. i NOe lah . my eyes not as Nice as u ppl.. coMe on, i DON’T use powder.. i DOn’t use eyeliner, i don’t use eyeshadow.. unless itz like a wedding dinner or something.. i Don’t even use lip gloss or wateva. n i don’t use blusher..  does my eYEs matter to u all SO much that u ppl HAV to look into my eyEs all the time?? so can u juz Drop it?. WAIT till i catch all of u wearing some form of make up. Admit it.. itz Juz a matter of Time. heheh.  my mum got it for me.. she Told me to use it.. n there;s a shelve life of 3 months so i can’t very well juz let it be wasted like that. ritEz ANYWAYZ.. i LIKE to use it. hahahaha. Don’t be so SaKai lah.

           Yesterday.. my life was boring.. the Day B4 yesterday.. aka.. Thursday.>> in the morning went for singing classes.. 4 the drama thing.. It was Really Really Fun.. =D 2 bad about that lame XcUSe for a piano kEyboard that i’m gonna hav to play 4 d performance.. helena was pissed off when she heard that i had bm. drama competition during the rehersal for the english drama.. n i was like..> watEver..  i don’t give a Darn care. i am NOT gonna giv up bm drama for the lame english performance for a charity dinner.. anywayz., i’m juz the pianist for the english drama. n i want to ACT. =D I’m doing BUSU from the bm form2 sastera book. *penuggu pusaka* hahah.. i get to be Posessed by an Old gHOst =D

         n SO the holidayz r almost over.. in fact. it IS over.. Practiacally> . yeah.. itz been fun.. but all good things come to an end.. n ANywayz.. i’m starting to get Fat. hahah.afraid i might hav some probz fitting into my uniform..  Hahah.

‘i caN’t really say Why i’m writing this.. hahah. i myself Don’t look at ppl’s blogs… (unless i’m Curious about the person which happens once in awhile) but I guess ultimately the blog is for Myself.. itz a kind of Nice to write n look back later on in mUa LiFE.. =D
              i went to the smi play today… Yeah it was Boring.. wouldn’t hav went if i hadn’t got a free ticket.. (tHankSs Marx)  hahah. didn’t particularly enjoy myself aCtually.. Darn Hot.. n i felt So Short.. > guys in front of me with their Spiky hair blocking my View!<  (i tend to hav an urge to crumple those annoyingly Very Spiky Hair) B4 that i was at church.. n B4 Church i was at school 4 drama practice.. oh Yeah Pn.X talks alot.. n she tends to Repeat herself in circles.. aihz.. i’ve heard the saMe stuff Multiple times.. Weird lah.. oh Yeah, the drama;s for some charity diNner at "lei how fok" or however itz supposed to be spelled.. itz that big restaurant opposite the store.. today was HOT..
              rite>. it suX when u Like someone romantically n that person isn’t Available oR.. even Worst.. doesn’t like u back.. isn’t it>?? Aihz.. juz a random thought.. i myself have no strong feelings for Anyone rite now.. nth i can’t handle.. in other words.. i don’t  gET The "i am So in Crush with him" feeling.. mmmM.. (*.*) like i don’t really stress over it.. hahaha. but after jonan asked me if i was interested in ANyone .. hahah.. i examined my Complex Mind n found out that i Do Like 1 or 2 guys rite now.. but> nths happening so.. Anywayz., i wouldn’t wanna go into a relationship with someone i hav feelings for at the moment.. i mean.. watz the point aNYWay? the whole point of dating is leadinG 2 the Ultimate end when u get Married Rite?? .. n frankly.. itz hard to hav a relationship rite Now n 2 early to be Serious.. wat r the chances that it’ll last??? not to mention the fact that the word "love" gets misused frequently in these circumstances..  see, now i’m being Cynical..> =D
                 tHEORy.. OhHh.. music theory.. itz soo Tedious..
i LOST MY WALLET.. iSH.

1.n So.. i didn’t go to school today.. hahah..went to that colourful library in the morning … then walked to parade with joee,hsin, n benben.. N NExt weeks holiday… Wat a Relief..  itz been rEally busy this week.. i haven’t even hav time to read the newspaper..  liddsoc fairwell was yesterday at ExcELsIOR.. (i just joined liddsoc a week ago or so).. hahah.. i think pn.helena was goin around trying to Recruit members..  anywayz..the food was okay.. 
      2.   Got 2 Memorise some stuff for that Bm drama competition.. v r doing>> ahaha.. penunggu pusaka.. (form2sastera0 n i’m BUSU.. WahKaka.///
  3.      Sometimes.. it seems tChers hav a limited brain capacity.. they do the Weirdest stuff. Seriously! (not all though)
4.     YesS.. i DO think that MGS Interact Sucks. n itz probably gonna COntinue to suck for some time to come.. sIgH.. (i shall refrain from saying more) i don’t giv a daRn care anymore
5. Life vEry unFair.
6. itz Not Good to talk bad about ppl. i guess v should all refrain from judging.. to make the world a beter place
          7. i Can’t Stand FAKE creepy pEople.
8.  i haven’t had a crush on anyone for a Long Period of TIme.
9. Even if i Had.. the person wouldn’t Know it.
       10. is HUman Love Overated??
11. one Tries ONe’s best
       12. I Don’t hav a mathematical brain.
13. i’m aCtually Shy.. in some not so obvious ways.. even if no one belives i am
          14. is it Really important???
15. Crap is the Foundation of All good conversation..

hahah.. i wonder who’s Reading this??  yEs You.! whoever you are.. i am Flattered that u actually took time from your busy life to read abit of this.. even if u read only that one sentence.. LoL..i do that all the time.. Anywayz., i’ve decided Not to go for the student exchange thing.. itz Really Darn expensive..My parents won’t be able to let me go anyway.. but, itz Sorta comforting to noe i Qualified 4 it!! .. =D  hahah.
          Yeah…some ppl r coming this sunday to shoot a Scene for a MOVIE in MGS (aka. My sChool)..
see, i’m now a member of the Edi board.. photographer..in EST class last week,,> pn mahinder said she needed someone who can take candid photos n stuff.. n since i was Okay with it…i joined just like that.. Really Like taking photos.. (hey. i might b a photojournalist someday)…! Back to the movie thing… itz on sunday morning n i g2 go there to catch some photos..  i was like>> "Thatz So Cool"..  till i found out it was an rtm movie…  Thought it mIght be Ang LeE! ( his new movie with wangleehom n tony leung.. ang lee was at old town last week) *sigh*.. 2 Bad.. hAHAHa. still, it’ll be fun to check it out..!
          Phantom of the Opera v r gonna do that drama again.. this time itz supposed to be "international".. ppl coming from different countries to watch.. with PRESS coverage.. Helena was very into the Press coverage part.. =D 2 bad itz in that restaurant oPposite The Store… 4got the name..some big chinese restaurant i guess.. aiks! was hoping 4 a hotel. gonna hav to Play that Keyboard again4 the drama.. *Sigh* i don’t Like that keyboard.. itz Small.. n it doesn’t FEEL rIGHT..
n there’s No Pedal..there’s a Big difference between a piano and an old Small Keyboard without a pedal that runs on batteries (the wire’s RosakEd)….
            Goin to KL tmr for a One Day trip.. my auntie’s goin to hospital to remove her uterus… or something like that…n v r goin there to visit n to fetch ma granny to KL..
           Yesterday was my Other side Granny’s Real Birthday.. nth much though.. juz wrote a poem n gave her some chocolates.. don’t really Like that Gold vision fruit cake. i’m more Into Cheese. =D

> THE END

    YESS. my dream from some time bac Came TRUE.. i got shortlisted 4 d afs student exchange program.. but NOOO.. i don’t think i’m going to go. in Fact.. i’m MOST sure i’m Not goin to go.. to progress to the neXT stage. i’m supposed to pay 3000 downpayment.. n they will send my details n stuff to my 3 choice countries.. (1st choice> japan, 2nd choice>italy>3rd choice>australia). Yeap.. i chose according to the  3Cheapest.. even so>. japan’s d only place i can actually Afford Plus.> they  oFfer scholarship n itz already the cheapest of All the countries.. italy , the 2nd cheapest on the other hand>> is almost Twice as xpensive as japan..  so>. bCOZ they don’t confirm which country i’m gonna go 2>>. How m i sUpposed to pay the downpayment>??? italy’s like around 8000 i thnk.. there’s NO WAY.. i can afford to go there.. wat if they giv me a place in italy n not japan>??? THe 3000 Downpayment’s Not Refundable.. it will b forfeited if i back out. *sigh* i guess i won’t be goin>. but i feel like i’m giving up a chance..  =(